Tragedy

I am at the lowest point in my life. 

Before I go any further, I’d like to warn you that this is going to be another bad news-tragic blog post, so that you can stop reading further because no one likes bad news.

I just feel like I have to post this here as an outlet to let it out, as it becomes unbearable to keep it to myself - even if no one will read this. 

When I said that 2016 was an ‘unsavoury year’, little did I know that 2017 was going to be an even bleaker year that I would never be able to forget as long as I live.

It started with a death in the family; the first in my [immediate] family. That by itself was already difficult to deal with. For reasons too private to mention, we anticipated some problems, but never could we imagine that by the vilest scheme that happened some three years ago, that we were about to lose our house - the house we’ve been living in for close to 30 years; and since we don’t have any other house, will make us effectively homeless.

Even as I’m writing this I can hardly believe that this is happening to us. It’s like reading a book or watching a drama on TV.

To think that this was done by our own relatives, who are now feigning innocence and one in hiding. 

To think that my mom has been suffering for over 20 years and for what? For this. And my brother with his own health problems, who’s known the trouble longer than any of us and keeping it to himself so as not to upset us. And when I see them trying to cheer up, make a joke, and I look at their faces my heart just dies a little.

I’ve lost faith in human decency; I’ve lost faith in human morality.

There are more to our problems that I can put here. Even if I wanted to I wouldn’t even know where to begin. 

But in the middle of all this, I can tell you that humanity is not entirely dead; a stranger offered help; a kind neighbour and long-time family friend, unexpectedly but not surprisingly offered her house to live in for free. But none of them can save our house. No one can help us. Unless you’re a lawyer specialising in fraud and breach of contract and you reside in Malaysia specifically in Johor Bahru, you might be able to help. Even then I haven’t much faith.

Life has checkmated me. Thank you.